Another Battle

So, In the wake of the never ending traveling gunk I've been battling for over a week now I've allowed myself to become dehydrated.

For most people it isn't so bad when you get dehydrated. you get some minor symptoms and some minor discomfort, then you drink some water and you're right as rain.

Me, not so much. When I allow myself to get dehydrated, my brain turns into the pain center.
My major trigger (from what i can figure) is dehydration.

It starts slow. I get groggy and sluggish. I get really tired and sometimes I'll sleep all day. Then somewhere in this fog the pain starts. It will either start slowly and build up like the psycho background music in some slasher film. or it just jumps up and whacks you like a 2x4 to the side of the skull.

So now i'm in bed, I've been here since 630. After my lovely conversation with my husband who can only contact me once a day, I decided that it would be good to lay down. Ice pack on the back of my neck & one on the top of my head.

My medications make me sketchy. I feel sketchy and anxiety ridden. Like i'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I need to go to bed......

First phone post

So this is new to me on so many levels. First I am new to this whole 'smart phone' thing, second I'm in a new state of mind. Third, I'm an insomniac posting from my bed when I should be sleeping.

So my fine friends, shall we catch up??

Lets start with school. Wednesday was my last day of spring term and my last day of my first term here I Cali. What a b* of a term it was!!! So in Oregon the school terms are way shorter, think a 2:1 ratio for 'spring' terms. I took 20 credits this term: 1) history & English class 8cr. 2) interior design - materials & techniques 4cr. 3) math - Intro to algebra 4cr. 4) health online course 4cr.

To say it was an intense term is putting it mildly. But I honestly didn't really feel the weight of if until roughly the last 3 weeks. That's when I started to feel like EVERYTHING was due at the exact same time. But to be honest I really enjoyed the term. I learned a lot, not only in the classes but about Cali schools and about the people too.

I have a 10 day break, then summer term starts. I transferred schools due to budget cuts in the Interior design major at the first school. Which stinks because I really enjoyed the girls in that class. But I cant wait around for the classes I need.

My health - I decided to do this topic next because it directly effects my military career and my weight loss goals.
So I'm not sure how much I posted about this before but since about the first of the year I have been battling debilitating migraines. Ive been in the ER 4 times im 5 months, seen 4 different doctors, and have been on countless meds. Its been a rough go of things to say the least. So I finally got a GREAT doc and nurse and things have been looking up. They found out I have a significantly under active thyroid, so I am on daily pills for that. I had a sleep study done, I go in on the 1st for those results. That was an interesting experience. I literally had a pony tail of wires on me head!! I really hope I don't have to do that again, but it is a possibility.

I'm currently on:
1) birth control pills (low hormone)
2) thyroid pill
3) sinus/migraine pill
4) migraine pain pill
5) daily sinus spray

I think I'm missing something, but you get the idea. I know it seems like a lot, but it seems to be working. I've only been to the ER once on this mix of pills, lol. OH!!!! I forgot to tell you I get to sleep with that sexxxy nose strip breathe right thingy, its pretty badass!!!

Military- so I try my best to do my best at whatever I do. But in my military life, I seem to have something that always kept people from seeing my full potential... Until now! This unit has afforded me the opportunity to prove myself and shine!

Ive been able to start a new training program. Ive taken on a lot of responsibility as the booster club prez. Ive started trying to get additional training done for people in need of it, not just in my section.

We had a BIG inspection last month and my troops did outstanding, our section didn't get a single bad note! I'm so proud of them.

Now... If I could only pass my PT test, I would be golden. Its the one stinking pile of shit in my meadow of flowers. As soon as I pass the test, I'll be able to do so so so much more. It will be the last obstacle in my path towards WORLD DOMINATION... BWAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

Speaking of my fitness, on to my weight loss goal...
Now that I can post from my phone, I think I'll be able to update that blog more.

I was seeing a personal trainer, but she kept canceling appointments, and eventually quit on me. I had seen another trainer in the gym, and after one of my canceled appointments I stopped her and asked if she had any openings. Thank goodness she did. She's amazing. I call her my tiny nazi! I mean it in the best way. Shes so motivating and tough at the same time. She has a track record of passing scores. So I really don't want to break that record.

I have SO much riding on this test, I have to pass, their is no other option.

Well..... That about wraps it up. Ill try and post Mor often. It will be easier now that I have this option.

Later gaters.

Its been rough

first its p-week so i'm overly emotional as it is. So the things that got me so upset seem kind of minor, but when added all up it was just more than I could handle.

I called my mom last night and just cried.
It just hit me how hard it is to be so far away from home and have no friends.

The whole school situation is hard. And I think that I don't get to see B much now, whats going to happen when my school is over an hour away?

I feel like I don't really get to spend time with him because he's on nights, and when we are home together. I spend a lot of time in my office doing my homework. I have to stay on top of it because if i take a day off I just drown in it.

We try and stay on top of the chorese, he's been trying to help. but it just got over whelming.

The landlord is a dirt bag and I just want to get out of this place. but we still have about 6 months on the lease.

My head aches are out of control. I have one about every 3 days now.

My headache meds don't help my sleeping. They make me drowsy, but won't actually let me get sleep. so the first 2 hours i'm actually asleep Its that awkward half sleep where you have wicked vivid weird dreams.

I'm still struggling with my re-enlistment bonus. I still don't have the last payment from my first bonus.

I had to call my old state DMV again because they never got me the documents to get my license renewed from here. I do NOT want a drivers license in this state.

I had to call the VA because my school still hasn't been paid off. but they show that its been paid, so now i have to go to my school and figure out why they haven't posted it.

I'm just spent.
I'm tired
I'm sore
I'm over it.
I just want my mommy

When enough is enough

So in my last blog i stated that I was at a loss.

The reason I'm lost is in regards to one of my best friends in the whole world. I've talked about her a lot before on here. She's my best friend and the mother of my god son.

The problem is she's in an abusive relationship...... again. She's been with this boy (I say boy because men don't abuse women) for over a year now. and the longer she's been with him the worse he keeps getting. He isn't physically abusive, but he is mentally and verbally abusive xBizzilion.

On thursday night, It got so bad that she had to lock her self in their bathroom in order to get away from his verbal war he was waging against her.

On Friday, she went in for an abortion. The whole day he was calling, texing, and emailing her telling her he was moving all her stuff out of the house and that she was out on her own and that he wasn't going to be there for her at her appointment

Friday night, she was back with him. Telling me 'she hates how much she loves him'.

I feel so twisted with emotions inside.

I feel terrible that I'm not there to rescue her this time.
I feel terrible i wasn't there for her at her appointment to be the comfort he can't and won't be.

I feel incredibly relieved that I am free of the drama because i'm over 600 miles away with no possible way to get home to her.

If my godson wasn't in the middle of all of this, I probably would have cut ties with her and the drama a long long time ago.

but unfortunately there's a sweet little boy caught up in the mix, and I'm not about to let him out of my life any time soon.

I think I'm learning

So as you all probably have come to know i have a bad bad habit of finding friends who are needy and use me.

I know i do it, I don't mean too. but I do.

So I made a friend down here. She lives on base and is in my unit. I think i've talked about her before.

Anways. to the point of this post...

We have been dieting, working out, and basically spending a lot of time together. I invited her, her husband, and her daughter over for christmas dinner several weeks ago. She said she'd come and even offered to bring over green bean casserole.

So christmas keeps coming closer and we're shopping for food. I buy a 14lb turkey to feed us 5 (and have extra in case bri had a couple coworkers who wanted to come). I buy all the fixens as well. the only thing she had to do was do what she said, and show up. We kept talking about how happy I am that they are coming because it is my first holiday with out my family. Christmas is always a big holiday with my family so I would really enjoy the company to ease the blow a bit, you know?

Christmas eve I text her to tell her about what time we'll eat. She texts me back at 8pm on christmas eve saying she's not coming because her husband doesn't want to.

I was SO upset. B was mad. He actually told me to not bring her around for a long time because he won't be able to filter his feelings.

I know that this is setting a presidence for future behavior in this relationship. and i'm just ducking out now.

I have to be friendly with her because we're on the booster club together and we're in the same unit. but i'm just done with friendships like this.

my feelings are still really hurt. I know i'm probably going a little over board, but I just can't take on another needy and use-y friend

Who wants to see the new house?!?

So I thought I'd lighten the mood a bit. Seems like everyone I know is down a bit today. So I didn't want to distract with to much more. So I thought I'd post some house pictures. Nice and Neutral. lol.

These photos are all the ones I took with my cell phone the day we came to sign the lease. We've been in the house a little over a week. Once we get settled I'll post better pictures.

This is the front of the house

This is looking in the front door (you're looking into the living room)

This is the living room

This is the dining & kitchen area (looking left from the entry way)

This is the chalkboard on the back of the kitchen cabinets

This is the family room (looking from the kitchen out into the back yard)

this is the master bedroom.
the previous tenants (aka the owners niece) had a 'beach' themed bedroom

Master bathroom

Guest room #1 - AKA B's office

Guest room #2 - AKA my office
The previous tenants had twin little girls
This WILL be repainted

Guest bathroom
ugly purple color
apparently the previous tenants LOVED the whole faux-chair rail look
::gags quietly to self::

This is the back yard
(stepping out from the slider and looking right)

my orange tree on the far right side of the house.

random tree with a random deck attached
there used to be a 'tree house' here i guess.

this is standing at the far fence looking at the back yard

and my lovely pomegranate tree that is overflowing from the neighbors yard
There's one in the front too.
SCORE!

Tiny Health Scare

So this week was 'That appointment'. The one appointment every year that woman dread.

Since my doctor was already going down south, I decided to talk to her about this mole I had on my upper inner thigh. Think right where your inner thigh, butt cheek, and groin all meet.

We have a lot of cancer in my family. Most recently my Great Uncle (mom's uncle) died of complications from lung cancer. My Grandmother (mom's mom) has non-severe skin cancer. She gets 'chunks' of skin removed every 4-6 months.

so needless to say I'm very aware. I check my moles, I check my breasts, etc.

I brought this to her attention was strange for 2 reasons:
1) It had developed in less than a year
2) It extended past the normal skin layer.

After the normal pap, she took a closer look at the mole.

She decided to remove it so she could send it in for testing.

Nothing says "have a good day" like an anesthesia shot to the vagina at 8 am.

hahahaha.

No it wasn't actually on my vagina, but a lot closer to it than I ever wanted.

I don't think I've ever said "fuck" that loud in my whole life. I apologized and then kept my fucks to an inside voice.

The 1st shot hurt soooooooooooo bad (10 out of 10). the 2ND one hurt, but not as bad (7 out of 10). The 3rd shot wasn't bad, just a little pinch (2 out of 10).

I told her to tell me when she was done, because I didn't want to look.
I was really proud, I didn't cry at all.
I got teary eyed with the anticipation, but during the actual procedure - no tears (but lots of "fucks")
B thinks I 'passed out' and don't remember crying. He doesn't think its believable that I didn't cry.

So I'm a little worried, just because it developed so quickly. But I trust my doctor when she says don't worry about it. She IS sending it in, just in case, but she seriously doubts its anything.

So I currently have a rather large bandage in a very inconvenient spot.
Tonight is the first time I changed the bandage (I put it off a little long). I was finally able to see what it looked like.

I have a 1/4" circle chunk of skin missing. because of the angle, I can't see how deep it is. The doctor said i have to keep it covered and dry until it "fills in" so I think it might be a bit deeper than I expected.

for what its worth, i think after this i can get a wax NO PROBLEM!

3 years ago today

...I married the love of my life

... I said "I do" to growing old with my best friend

... I became blessed by being married to an amazing man

... I became more happy and whole. He's my missing piece.

I love him with all my heart and soul.

_________________________________________________

OH the joys of being married and both being in the military.

I came home from my first duty location June 06 and met B.

we started dating and then I left for Germany in November.

December I was home and he asked me to marry him.

January I left for military school in Missouri.

March 07 I came home on my birthday. Our families meet the DAY i came home.

June 07 we were married. B starts nursing school that next September.

Jan 09 I was deployed during his last term of school & I missed his graduation.

we were together for a year, with a couple mini breaks for B to go help another unit in... Mississippi i think.

and a year almost to the day that i came home and he leaves for almost as long.

I missed his graduation from officer school because we couldn't afford for me to fly down.

lol.

I've spent 2 birthday's home since i was 18.

And now i spend tonight, my third anniversary, alone in my bed... with the dog. UGH!

but that's okay... Its the life I chose.

I've never been more solid. I've never been this happy. I'm blessed

Injury & Workmans Comp (Part II)

This one is super long stay with me.

So Iput my foot down. I emailed the "HR" guy and told him I wanted everything gone through WC. I didn't care how they paid for it, but I did want all the paper work put through.

So on the 17th I had a follow up appointment in which they put me on more meds. It was exactly one week and one day from the incident. I LOVED the doctor and he was great.

I had to go get a second set of x-rays on my neck. well... apparently I got stuck behind some lady that had to have full body x rays or some shit and was waiting for an hour and a half to get 4 x-rays of my neck.

(Total side bar) So the urgent care and the follow up place are in different offices directly across the hall. So when I went to get my neck x-rays they took me BACK over to the urgent care side and stuck me in a room, by myself, for over an hour. It was scary. I heard a woman screaming "OUCH! SOMEONE HELP ME", but I never saw her. There was a sick baby girl in another room (I did see her so sick, so cute) and I could hear her crying. It was scary. I made B give me a hug when I got back to the other side.

So the x-rays show nothing. No torn muscles, no bone damage. But I knew that.

So he put me on 3 doses of valum for 2 days and then 1 a day at bedtime the following days.

And a follow up in a week.

So when I went to fill my Rx. She told me my claim had been submitted, but not accepted.

(All of that was on a Wednesday)

then Thursday I got a call saying my claim WAS accepted! Thank GOD! Seriously I prayed so hard.

So I took my valum, and I was a zombie. And it was fantastic.


So Monday I started PT (physical Therapy)
He didn't do anything out of the ordinary.
he took a measurement of my movement and how far I could stretch my neck
he did a mini massage to gauge my sore spots and where I hurt
then he used the ultrasonic (I call it a vibrator) machine on my neck
then he hooked me up on this ultrasonic muscle stimulation thing. He put these sticky patches (4 I think) in various places on my neck shoulder and back. Then turned on a current. Covered my neck and back with a heating bad and left me for 15-20 min.

I felt fine when I left
but I hurt like HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL when I was done with the day.

B says it’s because it’s the first time those muscles have really been tested since I fell.

Today was my next follow up I had some douche bag doctor I was not a fan of. He told me that he didn't agree with the neck brace. I told him to bad.

I only wear the neck brace at work and when driving. When I’m at home I don't wear it unless I’m sleeping.

At work the other people sit behind me so no matter how hard I try to not turn, it’s nearly impossible.

He did keep me on my meds, which I’m thankful for because I’m sore as shit today too.
I take 1 naproxen in the morning and 1 naproxen when I get home
I take 1 valium before bed, and then vicoden if I need it.
For a while I didn't need the vicoden, but today and yesterday I needed 2 each night.

I told B that if I’m trying not to complain, but if I sit and allow myself to feel the pain, I bawl and bawl.

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on the work front.
I’m keeping them updated. They’re being VERY passive aggressive about my taking time for PT and follow ups. And such.

My female boss always has some stupid and inappropriate comment to say about my doctor's paper work that I ALWAYS give to her. She nitpicks it to death.

"What does contusion mean?"
"why does your "diagnosis" change every time you go in"
"Since when did your hip come into play"

stupid crap like that

I ignore her. But it really gets old. Really really old.

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I have PT
Thursday
Friday

then Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday

Then wednesday i leave work at noon and i have a 4 day duty weekend to make up for the one i missed. but because i'm off the 3 day valium i can make it.


thank you for listening if you did make it through all that.
i get so frustrated
my BFF A doesn't care about my issues
and B gets tired of me venting

thanks for listening.
this is the first time i have been undrugged enough to type it all out.

I would have Rocked the 1950's

I could have totally rocked the 1950's house wife era! I decided that today was "spoil my husband day"

1) made his coffee
2) made waffles (his favorite) with his favorite syrup.
3) doing laundry
4) took out the the dog (normally his job)
5) took out the trash (normally his job)

Dinner, I'm thinking about something fancy like stuffed shells. or pot roast (but we had that last weekend).

I'm also currently washing all the bedding.

I woke up this morning feeling slightly better, I'm still super stiff, and a little sore, but I'm in a GREAT mood.

Lets talk about the fashion too. OMGSH!

Look how amazing their dresses they have. I'm So in love with them. Back when woman with curves were a thing to be treasured and adored. they were classy and elegant. They were perfectly styled, never a hair out of place.

Speaking of hair...

The hair. Mostly short as far as i can tell from what little research I've done, and it it was long was mostly in a pony tail. So perfect, so sleek, so adorable, so feminine! goodness.

I could go on and on about the 1950's. the bathing suits, the subtle sexual undertones... I just love it all.

Project Skinny Rotty

So like i said in my new years resolution post I'm trying to stay fit.

So I'm going to try and post weekly about my status. and I'm going to be brutally honest with you guys and myself

tomorrow morning when i go to they gym. I'm going to weigh myself. and tonight I'm going to take my measurements and track them... weekly.... ugh.

i have a long term goal of 130-135

but my short term obtainable goal is 165. I'd like to reach 150 by my 24Th birthday.

but we shall see.

My work is a Soap Opera (part I)

Have no fear if your favorite soap is being canceled. you can just come to work with me and you'll be set

So lets introduce the characters

SH - Manager of department L
TR - 2ND in command of department L
TR's Minions - her followers
SH-B - SH's Beau

So SH's Beau is kind of a 'bad boy' he had been avoiding the law and his punishment before i left for Iraq. When I came home i found out he was in jail. He kept getting in trouble so he kept getting his sentence lengthened (or whatever you call it)

well when he finally got released SH decided to take 2 days off to go pick him up, and run around town doing what ever it was that he needs to do after being released. SH has worked here since she was 17 and this is her first and only job she's ever had. She gives her heart and soul to her job. This is the first time she's asked for days off in 5 years. She normally cashes in her vacation. and works year round. Often coming in on holidays to solve this problem or that.

Well, TR & her minions didn't like the fact that SH was getting time off. They don't like her because SH's salary screws up their budget profit. Ever since TR has been invited to the budget meetings and other meetings she's become increasingly hostile to SH because of how much she makes. TR even made a scene screaming at SH saying "if i made what you made I'd be here all the time." and "you make XYZ, you should be here early and stay late" that's right ladies, she announced to everyone with in ear shot what SH makes. It was wildly inaccurate amount, but still.

So TR & her minions decided its time to screw SH out of her 2 days off. So you what do you think they did?

They pretended that minion numero uno had SWINE FLU! so that SH would have to cover numero uno's shifts.

WHO DOES THAT?

well. Big Daddy Boss Man (or Big daddy for short) asked for documentation, and POOF numero uno was all of a sudden fine and dandy.

I work in the front office, but i work for a different section of the parent company. My boss and i have NOTHING to do with department L, other than having their filing in our office.

While SH was on her 2 day vacation numero uno decides to demand to know where her paperwork is from my boss. um... what?

So my boss just looks her square in the eye, and tells her she's not talking to a minion and that she has nothing to do with their paperwork, and walks away.

I tell SH i do not envy her and I'm not sure how she even works with those people.

the only problem is Big daddy thinks the sun shines and sets out of TR's ass, and she's just the cutest thing since baby kittens. ::gags::

Like sands through the hour glass.
These are the days of our lives.

I'm weird

I just thought I'd start this post off with that.
I'm weird. I get that. If you accept it. This post will make A LOT more sense.

So, i do this thing. where i talk to people in my head.

Not only that, but i give people names in my head. I don't know these people, but i do it because... well I'm not really sure i know why. i just do.

when i used to work at the hospital and take the public transportation i used to do it ALL.THE.TIME! (Exhibit A & Exhibit B).

well, now i do this at the gym.

there are people that are nice like the 'early morning swingers couple' (who are all to friendly and to much energy for 5am), there's the Mrs.intense (she says nothing, she never looks around she's focused), then there's Mr.McFlirtyEyes (I've never talked to him, but you can tell). ya. i know I'm weird. we've established this.

so this happened in my head today (no this is not an actual interaction)

me: ::walks to shower::

overly exposed lady (walks around with a towel around her waste and a granny bra): ::looks at my feet:: i don't know how you can shower with out appropriate shower shoes

me: meh

O.E. Lady: its just gross

me: i figure if i can survive showers in Iraq, then I'm pretty safe in the showers at X gym.

O.E. Lady: ::shakes her head::

-end scene-

ya i don't know why i do this. I may very well be crazy. but at least its all happening in my head.
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but here's why i post this.

I was talking to my boss today about water. (these are actual events)

her: aren't you proud I'm looking for my water

me: why don't you just fill your bottle at your desk

her: i have a new bottle in my car with 'home' water

me: ::give side eye:: are you a closet water snob
(fyi we have a water fountain in the back of the plant)

her: uh.... i just don't trust that water

me: ::chuckles:: hey, i figured if i could use the water in Iraq to shower and brush my teeth and be fine, than that water is safe too.

her: ::cracks up laughing:: now THAT is funny

me: ::ponders the conversation in my head at the gym::

WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have a happy Wednesday!

Damn you PC & Kristin Cast

Damn you!!!!!!!!!!!



Picture this:

so here i was laying in bed last night reading the House of Night Book 6, Tempted. Then *poof*, Its over!! and the ending O.M.G!



So then i go to amazon to see when book #7 is coming out.



wait for it...



APRIL 27, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Damn you PC & Kristin Cast.

DAMN YOU!

That one of my old friends is friends with my ex... Again. She had introduced me to said ex. they were friends before we became friends

Me and said ex had a very passionate and volatile relationship.

This ex royally fucked up both my relationship with brain and her relationship with her husband.

It fucked up her relationship so bad that they called off their engagement and broke up for several months.

I don't talk to her much anymore. But I got bored and looked her up on face book. And there he was.

.... Why does this bug me so much?

It makes my decision to cut ties with her more solid. I’ve been wishy washy about it for a while.

Me and brain got drunk one day and he told me he didn't like her because she had a part in the bad period in our relationship in the beginning.

And I understood that so I didn't ask him to do 'couple' things anymore with them. And just slowly we grew apart.

Now this.

I feel betrayed.
But I don't think I have a right to feel that way.

stupid facebook.
i was perfectly okay thinking he no longer existed.

Its the simple things

There are often moments, and sometimes they’re so simple, that just make you think how lucky you are.

Last night after a hard day's work I came home, feeling kind of frustrated. When I walked in the door B stopped his game, got up, and looked so excited that I was home. He walked into the living room and gave me a big old hug and a kiss. I was shocked and my mood was totally switched

It’s the little things like this that make me so lucky to have him.
He makes me so incredibly happy and he doesn't even do it on purpose

Time Out Thursday

Time For Time Out Thursday



Good morning all, Its Time Out Thursday again. I love that its already thursday.

This week was similar to last week.

My time out this week was MAKING (not finding making time!) Time for the gym. I tried their boot camp class again. And while i love love love it. I'm still quite sick and couldn't make it through their whole class. The real teacher was back this week, he's freaking awesome. He's Air Force Special Forces. And he's a freaking KILLER!

I'm so so sore. He yelled. He screamed. He MOTIVATED. I'm so excited for next week to go back!

Then i came home, made my Pasta Bake, and had 2 glasses 1 bottle 1 small bottle (makes me feel better) of wine. and watched dexter with my loving husband and my sick baby boy (sammy had issues yesterday, long story)

My time out thursday = gym + wine + food + cuddletime!!!

Wordle

I've been wanting one of these for a very long time, i hope it fits!



This feels very fitting and appropriate!
Love you all ♥

Friend Making Monday

On a tuesday. I'm running a bit late on this one (as always) but i'm at least I'm finding time to post. Even if its 4:50 in the morning.

This week is What Makes You Happy? We're breaking it down for the small things in life.

♥My Amazing husband. He is my missing piece and i love him with everything i am
♥ Our long haired weenie-dog Sammy. He's our baby for now!!
♥Extreme Home Makeover - Fills my need for design and my need for drama. Love love love!
♥Starbucks Iced Tea!! I'm a wee bit obsessed with it.
♥ My little brothers. lol, p.s. this pictures is from high school. My little brother is on the left, i'm in the center, and my brothers best friend (my brother by association) is on the right.

♥ Reading good books under a comfy blanket
♥Chilling out on the couch after a long week with my love.
♥ Good Oregon Storms.
♥ Spending time with these 2 crazy kids
♥ And my Godson. He's pretty much the light of my life. So amazingly great!!

What makes you happy!?