The more things change, The more they stay the same

So I was reminded today about the circle of life in the world of the military.

A fellow blogger Chelle @ The Winey Mommy said good bye to her husband today. She sent him off to serve his country and do is duty. It breaks my heart and makes me thank the lord, that at the moment I have my husband.

Its kind of interesting, like the world wanted me to realize how lucky I was. I happen to log on to blogger minutes after she had posted on her blog about saying good bye.

I had been complaining to my friends via texts that i was trying to 'sweat my way to a better mood' in the gym. I was upset with B about something really really really stupid and petty this morning. I left the gym still feeling cruddy and now I felt cruddy and sore. When I logged on and saw her post I got out of that mood pretty darn quick. Nothing snaps you out of a cruddy mood here faster than seeing a fellow military wife lose half her heart.

And I also fine it at no coincidence that today is also the 9th anniversary of 9/11. Sometimes its easy to lose focus on what is important in life and what you should be thankful for. But today... today I was reminded of how lucky I am. I hope on a day like today, that has forever changed many lives, I hope you all stay thankful.

I hope you all hug your loved ones a little more securely tonight.
I hope you all thank the lord for the breath you take and the kisses you get.
I hope you all are snuggled down with the loved ones you have (may they be 2 legged or 4)
I hope you all remember
I hope you all stay thankful.

Goodbyes & Beerflu

This weekend was my last drill with my unit up here. It was a bittersweet weekend. I couldn't come up with a more accurate word.

I'm so sad to leave the great friends and bonds I've formed over the years I've been up there.
Yet, I'm so excited for the next step in my life.

(right after we got home)

I have so many good friends up there. We deployed together, we went to annual tour together, we hung out. Its going to be hard to top this unit.

(waiting to get out of country)

(in Shannon, Ireland)

They took me out Saturday night.
We went to a local bar that I've been going to every drill since we moved up to the new base. I've gotten to become really close with the bartenders there. We even became Facebook friends (lol). I didn't pay for a single thing all night. They were amazing. When I finally left, I cried and gave them both big hugs. When your away from home, its nice to have a friendly face. They were great people.

Then came Sunday
I had a serious case of Beerflu Sunday morning.
I woke up Sunday... still drunk
I went back to sleep for an hour... still drunk
I took a shower to sober up... nope still drunk
I threw up...a lot... still drunk
I had my friend drive me on base... still drunk.

soooooooooooooooooo bad.


about 10 am I finally sobered up, and I totally skipped the hangover phase. I went from drunk, to a wee bit sick, to sober. It was AWESOME.

I'm pretty sad to leave, but I'm really excited.
Its all coming together. Its all wrapping up.

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walkin' til you find the window
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

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I was talking to an old friend today who's boyfriend is currently deployed.

And we were talking about how we haven't hung out in years and the fact that we need to reconnect.

I said to her "Sometimes life guides paths together". I just really think this statement is so true for me lately

And lately I've really found that god was looking down on me and saw I was in need of a friend who just 'got it' and blessed me with my new friend/old acquaintance J.

So here's a little back ground:

J and I went to Middle School and High School together (graduated the same year). We had the same friends, and often were at the same events together (dances, games, etc.). Even though we knew each other we weren't "friends". We were acquaintances. I didn't dislike her for any reason, but there just never came a time where our life paths met at a time for us to talk.

So fast forward several years....

B and I stop by a local bar to drop of his friend. J and her Husband JT were there. B and JT went to high school together and graduated the same year too. So we're talking and BS'ing and exchange numbers. We text a little bit, but nothing ever comes of it.

Fast forward another couple years...

We've been Facebook friends for this whole time and just never really talked. One day I see she posted that she needs some adult interaction. J and JT have a 4 year old Em. JT is gearing up to deploy here in the near future, so J quit her no good job to spend time with him. So we arrange an 'adult day'. We didn't do anything but hang out on her patio, but we just clicked.

I honestly feel that god guided our life paths together right at the right time. I mean, of course he did. Everyone (even the most devout believer) has a moment in their life where they question where God is leading them. This just feels right.

Its good to have a friend who was in the military (medically discharged), who's married to the military (JT's about to set out on his second tour), and someone who just 'gets it'.

I can look at her and just stick out my lip, and all that she says is "I know Hun!"

As JT's D-Day (deployment day) creeps up closer and closer she's more and more emotional. and it just feels good to be here for her. She texted me tonight and said she was sorry in advance for not being a 'very good friend' in the near future because she's going to spend time with JT.

I told her do NOT worry about it. I'll be there for her and we'll hang once JT can't anymore. And

I told her a while ago that I fully plan on being there for her when he's gone. I'll cook her food, make sure she eats, and take care of EM until she can.

I'm blessed.

I went through some rough times when B left. Took me a while to get my mind right.

I feel that now that I'm mentally healthy and squared away, god has blessed me with a good friend to keep me that way.

I've always been a firm believer that you can't be good in any relationship that has love (friends, family, marriages) until you are good and love yourself first.

God waited till the perfect time to bring my path and J's path together.

I don't know what I would do with out her right now.

hahahaha. its been less than a month since we've become so close and if we go more than 24 hours, we tell each other we're going through withdrawls. hahahaha. I went over to her house today for just an hour or so. That way we could get our 'fix'. we're a little to perfect for each other, its kind of scary.

Sewing Project #2

After a rough week. i decided i needed a project.




I'm going to make a skirt.

I got a pattern, fabric, new thread, a ZIPPER, and an eye hook. omgsh. i'm so excited!

I'm making the yellow one.

I'm using a pink and white pokadot fabrick. i'm really really excited!!!!
Wish me luck!

3 years ago today

...I married the love of my life

... I said "I do" to growing old with my best friend

... I became blessed by being married to an amazing man

... I became more happy and whole. He's my missing piece.

I love him with all my heart and soul.

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OH the joys of being married and both being in the military.

I came home from my first duty location June 06 and met B.

we started dating and then I left for Germany in November.

December I was home and he asked me to marry him.

January I left for military school in Missouri.

March 07 I came home on my birthday. Our families meet the DAY i came home.

June 07 we were married. B starts nursing school that next September.

Jan 09 I was deployed during his last term of school & I missed his graduation.

we were together for a year, with a couple mini breaks for B to go help another unit in... Mississippi i think.

and a year almost to the day that i came home and he leaves for almost as long.

I missed his graduation from officer school because we couldn't afford for me to fly down.

lol.

I've spent 2 birthday's home since i was 18.

And now i spend tonight, my third anniversary, alone in my bed... with the dog. UGH!

but that's okay... Its the life I chose.

I've never been more solid. I've never been this happy. I'm blessed

Friday Fill Ins... On a Saturday

So i recenlty discovered Friday Fill ins, I think they're kind of awesometatic. So here we go. feel free to add it to you're blog. They're pretty fun!!

1. The crickets sing, I remember camping.

2. I would do what ever it takes to be, wherever you are.

3. I want to get far away from the sound of the haters and the people who disagree.

4. I woke up this morning telling my self over and over again that ; this was a dream.

5. But as for me I realized i still have a lot of growing to do.

6. A long and twisted windy road of mental and physical growth is where, I come from.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to calmness, tomorrow my plans include Coaching and Sunday, I want to clean and do nothing special!

Time Out Thursday...er Saturday! :)

I'm a little bit behind in my blogging. So i have 2 posts to catch up on. So I'll go with the oldest first than move up.

So Thursdays are Time Out for Theta Mom. But because I'm not a mom yet, I just call them: Time Out Thursdays. Its a post about being selfish. yep, that's right, we're bragging about being selfish!! We are selfishly taking a moments for ourselves. 1 WHOLE our. woop woop.

This week my time out was Saturday. I took 2 hours. I took 2 hours and spent them with a bunch of kids.

Every Saturday morning since i was 8 was bowling! Now that I'm older, I'm now a coach. and i love it. I know I've talked about it before, but i coach in "Bob's Bumper Buddies". Bob happens to be my dad. Since I've come home and stayed home, I've taken over and I do it selfishly. Those 5 boys that i coach (Cameron C., Alex A., Ethan, Tyger, & Cameron K) seriously make my week.

This week i had a really long week. My coworker/boss (who really needs a shorter name) was on vacation all week so i worked:

Monday: 8-5
Tuesday:6-5
Wednesday:6-5
Thursday:6-5
Friday:6-5

I worked 48 hours (give or take a few min) this week. And as tired as i was watching those boys bowl. and how excited they got, and how happy they are made the whole week worth it. I never thought I'd be in love with 5 men at once, but those little men have stolen my heart!

October 15th - Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Today is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Far Far Far to many of my dearest friends have suffered pregnancy and infant loss in their life time.

Take a few moments from your day and say a prayer in memory and in love and loss of the babies that were to beautiful to be kept in this world.

May they always be remembered. May they never be forgotten. They will always be loved. Always.

A Question For You.

What do you dream about?
What is your dream?
Think Big!! Don't think "oh i want to finish tiling the bathroom" I'm talking about what do you want to accomplish in your life time? What do you dream about?

I dream about owning my own interior design firm. but make it affordable. I want to help the hectic mother of 2 who works all day and needs help organizing her life and adding a touch of class to her house.

I dream about retiring and buying and maintaining our favorite inn on the coast.

I dream of having a career that can allow me to be home when my kids get home from school

I dream of going to germany to the little town where my husband's family originates.

I dream of owning a bar. The kind of bar where you go to hang out, maybe play pool and poker. The kind of bar where everybody knows your name.

I dream of opening a resturant with my husband. He makes the best food from ideas out of his head. I think he'd be an AMAZING chef and business man.

I dream of opening a bakery. I would love love love to make my living making cupcakes and doughnuts. I think that would be A.Maz.Ing!!

I dream of getting pregnant and having a happy and healthy baby.

I dream of building our DREAM house on a HUGE hunk of land.

I dream of having enough land to grow all our own veggies and fruits.


What do you dream about? What is on you're life to-do list??

Hanging out with the BFF and the Godson

Yesterday My BFF A came over with Dominic. B was making calzone so A and Dom came over to hang out.

and go figure... i took pictures.
Sam and dom became BFF's
"here let me fix your ear"
"whaaaaat? i didn't touch the fan"
chasing sammy!!!

"hello people in the blogosphere! Its me Dominic and i'm in a basket"

Lets Bring It Down For a Moment

So I have come to a Conclussion...


Cancer is the great equalizer.

It doesn't matter your age, race, back ground, what you did in your past, who you are. Cancer is the greatest equalizer i know of.

I just found out one of the most amazing men in my life has end stage lung cancer. My Great Uncle Ken. I am tearing up as i type this. I love him. He so does not deerve this.

Don't get me wrong. I love my parents. BUT my Uncle Ken and my Aunt Henrieta are what i want to model my marriage after. They have been married for almost 60 years. And they are more in love than anyone i've ever seen.

My Uncle is a good man. He doesn't deserve the end of cancer. I feel so useless. So helpless. I hate it.

I hope he knows how much i love him and how much him and my aunt mean to me! I understand that there's a grand scheme of things, but this... this... this just doesn't make since.


So i'm going to post a bunch of pictures. But i want to give the background first.
When me and B got married my aunt had fallen and broken her hip. We weren't sure if they were going to make it. So I went thru getting ready, the ceremony and everything thinking that they were with me in heart, but not in body. then:

I see them in line!

And I cry Happy Tears that they are there.


And he tells me how happy he is for me and how much he loves me.

And We hug!!

And B. Like the loving husband he is, trys to understand. Lol.

My uncle Ken Is AMAZING!!

This is Me and my Aunt Hank at their 50th Wedding Anniversary when i was in High School. She's Full Eskimo and I Love her more than sunshine. She's an Amazing Light for the world to see.

Do you smell that smell?

Whats that smell i'm smelling?

FALL!

Fall is coming people! and i'm SOOOOOOOOO excited.

After reading NYC H.I.T and McMommy, I've decided to carry on the tradition.

So This is what i'm excited for this fall:

~Candles

~Snuggling Under Blankets

~The Holidays

~Using my heater in my new car

~Long sleeves & Long plants

~Snuggly Sweaters

~Boots & Slippers

~FLEECE Pj's

~Ciders and Coffee (its always better in the fall)

~Decorating

~Dark Colors! i love rich rich dark colors of fall. plums, burgdys, chocolates. love love love.

& FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!

So food deserves its own category!

-soups

-Stews

-Roasts

-Baking!

-cookies

-cupcakes

-baking

-baking

-baking

I'm so so excited!

Look what i got this weekend:

I Can not tell you how excited i am for fall!
Don't get me wrong, i love summer. but i'm ready for fall!

So what are you excited for?? i wanna know!