My work is a Soap Opera (part I)

Have no fear if your favorite soap is being canceled. you can just come to work with me and you'll be set

So lets introduce the characters

SH - Manager of department L
TR - 2ND in command of department L
TR's Minions - her followers
SH-B - SH's Beau

So SH's Beau is kind of a 'bad boy' he had been avoiding the law and his punishment before i left for Iraq. When I came home i found out he was in jail. He kept getting in trouble so he kept getting his sentence lengthened (or whatever you call it)

well when he finally got released SH decided to take 2 days off to go pick him up, and run around town doing what ever it was that he needs to do after being released. SH has worked here since she was 17 and this is her first and only job she's ever had. She gives her heart and soul to her job. This is the first time she's asked for days off in 5 years. She normally cashes in her vacation. and works year round. Often coming in on holidays to solve this problem or that.

Well, TR & her minions didn't like the fact that SH was getting time off. They don't like her because SH's salary screws up their budget profit. Ever since TR has been invited to the budget meetings and other meetings she's become increasingly hostile to SH because of how much she makes. TR even made a scene screaming at SH saying "if i made what you made I'd be here all the time." and "you make XYZ, you should be here early and stay late" that's right ladies, she announced to everyone with in ear shot what SH makes. It was wildly inaccurate amount, but still.

So TR & her minions decided its time to screw SH out of her 2 days off. So you what do you think they did?

They pretended that minion numero uno had SWINE FLU! so that SH would have to cover numero uno's shifts.

WHO DOES THAT?

well. Big Daddy Boss Man (or Big daddy for short) asked for documentation, and POOF numero uno was all of a sudden fine and dandy.

I work in the front office, but i work for a different section of the parent company. My boss and i have NOTHING to do with department L, other than having their filing in our office.

While SH was on her 2 day vacation numero uno decides to demand to know where her paperwork is from my boss. um... what?

So my boss just looks her square in the eye, and tells her she's not talking to a minion and that she has nothing to do with their paperwork, and walks away.

I tell SH i do not envy her and I'm not sure how she even works with those people.

the only problem is Big daddy thinks the sun shines and sets out of TR's ass, and she's just the cutest thing since baby kittens. ::gags::

Like sands through the hour glass.
These are the days of our lives.

Sometimes i wonder...

What it would be like to just quit. To just walk away. To just tell them all that what they're doing is fucked up, that whats going on is jacked.

So, Thursday i get pulled into an impromptu meeting about my job. apparently my position is being eliminated. and they're offering me another job in the company. It hasn't been created yet, but it will be with in the next month. I'd basically be the Secretary for the whole company. I'd love to tell you that i should take it, and i'm excited for the new opportunity. but i just can't. I hate the way they treat me, i hate the way i feel. i just hate it all. I just want to get out of there.

their they value the ability to blow smoke up someones ass instead of loyalty, work quality and job performance. i'm just so tired of it.

I'm tired of busting my ass and getting no where.
I'm tired of trying soooooooooo hard and getting smacked back down.
I'm tired of caring and getting nothing in return.

I just want to quit. I just want to get out. I hate it so much i cry. I hate it so much im exhausted from pretending.

dear lord, please let B get a job so i can get out of there. thank you for blessing me with the ability to work. but i just hope B gets an opportunity soon! :(


thanks for letting me vent!

Update on me...

So I'm still chugging along at work (aka the job from hell or TJFH). Every time it seems to get a little better, it gets 20x worse.

I'm still doing FL (fearless leaders) piddly little jobs. She's basically made me her bitch, and I've done nothing to stop it. why you may ask? because i need the moola. so at TJFH i offered to bring my lap top in to redo our customer lists with the newer version of excel that i have on my lap top to make it a lot easier. oh, that lasted about 1 day.

i brought in my lap top yesterday and worked on it for a while and did more in that short time, then i did that whole week (this is Thursday). Then today i come into work and I'm told... no ordered to work on the work computer and delete the customer list from my hard drive. Like I'm going to cell the work's customer list. wow! who would i sell a list of apartment complexes and management company's too? WTF?

Then i find out that FL is going to be "cross training" me into my old job duties. Yep, she's going to be training me to do the job that i did before i left, and the job i trained her to do. who the mother loving fuck does this bitch think she is.

ohhhhhhhhhh oh oh!!!!!!!!!!!! last friday she told me that i'm only allowed to go to the bathroom on breaks, and asks me if there's a medical need to go to the bathroom as much as i do? wtf? i drink water bitch. i work out, i drink water. wtf?!? i drink water i pee. oh then i'm told i'm not allowed to have my cell phone in my pocket, it MUST be in my purse. so not only can i not pee when i need to. I can't have my personal items on my person. who is this person? gah!

I've talked to the military about this job. I've talked to the Lt. Col. in public relations who's been my number one contact about the whole situation. And i've emailed her back and forth and she's got my back 110%. she knows what i'm doing is correct and what they're doing is so beyond wrong. She even called them to let them know what there doing is not only wrong its illegal, and what did they do? THEY ARGUED WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they argued with her about military and civilian law. and so the employment manager at my job just gets all huffy and demands "well, why don't you just tell us what we're doing wrong." she states, "I just want you to give her what she's earned and the law allows her to get. Educate yourself in what she's allowed by law".

god i hate that place. i'll be so happy to be rid of it as soon as the opportunity presents it self.

2 topics 1 post

Topics To Talk About:
-work update
-Camping
-BFF's marital situation
-Sammy's freak out after camping
-B's new job update
-my latest admission in my list of obsessions

We'll talk about B's work update and my work up date together!

first my job update:

It officially makes me ill to go to work anymore. The stuff that they pull there, the stuff they get away with. I feel like i'm wasting away there. I am a good worker. I work hard, I pay attention, and I like to work. But, there... none of that matters. Its just not worth staying there.

So i'm updating my resume. and starting monday i'm looking for another job.

If there are any resume writers out there that are willing to look it over, i'd really appreciate it.

B's Job Update:
So, still no luck.
No Tips.
No Leads.
No Nibbles
No Interviews
No Nothing.
Nada.
Zilch

We're now applying in Northern California and Northern Washington. B said he got a good feeling about the one in Washington. Its about 30 min from our base, which is better than the 3 hours we're away from base now. I hope he gets that one. its a day shift position too. So please keep your fingers crossed that we get something. I know that if he would just get an interview. I know that if b could just get an interview, we'd be set!

OH! and for all my military friendly folk, by the end of the year he'll be an officer!!! i'm so excited. i'm going to be married to an LT! I'm so excited for him. He past his physical this weekend. He's going to finish his packet and then once his packet is stamped by AFRAC, he'll be good to go. He already changed into the AES and has a O-1 position waiting for him. I'm so happy for him. It seems to be the one thing he's gotten a break on in a really long time.

So ya. there's that.

Topics To Talk About:
-work update
-Camping
-BFF's marital situation
-Sammy's freak out after camping
-B's new job update
-my latest admission in my list of obsessions
-Family intown from alabama

random picture because B's out of town and i'm missing him like crazy at the moment.

So a little work update

So. It still blows. lol.

but it gets better. i try to start each day fresh. I really am trying to put my best effort into every opportunity and into every task I'm assigned. I feel better about this week than last week. I haven't cried after work once this week. which is good to my 4 days in a row last week. haha.

I like to consider myself a 'Microsoft office guru', i have worked with them alot, and they tend to do what i want. So when i was assigned to design a new program on excel to track some of our paperwork i was really excited. My FL (fearless leader) actually commended me on my document. She said (and i quote this) "that you can teach me a lot when it comes to excel, and i thought i knew a lot about excel." so i felt good today. of course she then tweaked it a little bit, but everyone has opinions. and i was able to quickly change it and get it to her liking. now we're just thinking and re-working the categorizations and it'll be set. it felt pretty good for her to like something that much.

i still feel like I'm working below my level. i still feel like I'm her assistant and not a co-worker. blech. but its a paycheck. and a steady one at that. So if this week is so much better than last week. here's hoping next week will improve still!

I never thought it would be this hard....

So i deffinatley think i went back to work to early. I thought about it today. i'm still technically on leave. i'm not even sure what to write at this point.

I called my mom today (who's still in arizona taking care of grandma) in tears. she really is my best friend and i wish she was here. i know she does better there righ tnow. and grandma needs her more. but i really need my mom.

i just can't take it.

i'm so annoyed. i'm so frustrated. just thinking about it and typing about it is putting me in tears.

i never thought going back to work would be this hard. I hate how weak and emotional i feel.

i can't quit.
i can't change it.
i can't look for a new job.

i'm just stuck.
fuck.

...Sigh...

OH the drama that is my work...
I hate that I have to work there at this point.

So the first day back - None of the management even said welcome back. it was stressful and unorganized and chaotic. i hated every minute of it. My new Fearless Leader (now called FL) was 5 min late. I dislike hate loathe lateness. I'm not joking. I am always always early. if i'm 15min early i'm around 5min late for me. i'd rather be 1 hour early than 1 second late. And my new FL comes in late, bad first impression.


Then she talks at me. she doesn't talk to me. look lady you're only 7 years older than me. you're not my mom. i'm not your child, i'm your co worker. treat me like it. i had to wait and ask her over and over again for tasks. i was waiting around to be graded like i was in school.no thank you.

The second day went better - my big boss man came and apologized for not saying welcome back, or that they were happy to have me back. then he walked me through a lot of the changes and a lot of the differences in the office that happened after i left. he told me that we were going to be slowly shifting some of my old job back to me and that in the mean time the owner had 'projects' that i'd be working on. I told him that doesn't sound bad. but if i had a list of the tasks i'd like it better. that way i didn't have to stop FL every 5 min when my next task is up. well, when he brought it up to her she said next week. so now i'm filing the papers they should be filing, i'm doing the things 'they don't have time for' or 'they're pet projects'. gah. but it was okay.

Yesterday sucked - for one thing it was CD2. not a happy camper. cramps are evil. i woke up that morning pain from the middle of my back to my ankles. seriously bad pain. but i took some Tylenol and went on my way. I went to work. I wish i had a desk. I wish I had MY desk back. I wish I had any space at all. At this point i barley have a chair to sit in. so i role from one spot to another. currently i'm sitting at big boss-man's desk. i didn't even have a drawer. grrr. its just frustrating. I don't feel like i'm working 1)at a level i left at 2)that i even belong in that office anymore.

If B had a job right now, i'd be looking for a new one. but because his job situation is so up in the air, i can't.

I'm now doing what i said i never would. I wake up ever day hating going to work. I hate every minute of it. I don't want to be there.... so ya.

thanks for letting me vent.

today's Thursday.
which means tomorrow's Friday.
lord help me make it through this week

My Visit To My Job

I say visit, because i was there for less than 1 hour. I basically went in to check in and say "hi, i'm alive!"
okay a back story. In my civilian job i do invoicing for a small off shoot window coverings company. its a branch off of a family run dry cleaners which has 4 sections: cleaners, restoration, door to door, and window coverings.

in my office there are only 2 of us. We worked well together. I liked my work. It was simple, not to complicated as far as customers go. I liked our customers, some of them i even told i was being deployed and they were SO supportive. But now that i'm back i do not look forward to going back. I guess because it is so 'simple' i don't think i'll be happy there. I'm used to my fast paced life of my deployment and i doubt i'll be happy there any longer.

anyways I got off track.

So i go in and everyone seems tentative and uneasy. i'm not sure why. but this place has a way with the dramatics, so its not uncommon.
I say hi to everyone. Go in the back to see the boss (who's in a mood of hell). He sends me to see K. so i go across the street to see him. We chat for a bit. i tell him i can come back to work on the 15th. He says "that should be enough time". What its enough time for, I'm not sure. But then he tells me that they want to keep all 3 of us (me, my co-worker, and my temp) in the office for a while then "see how things go". WHAT?!

So the next day i email my coworker. and ask her how things are going. She tells me that my Temp ( we'll call her A) doesn't want to leave. That they're thinking of making her our supervisor. WHAT? okay let me say this. I took over the job when C moved to Texas. C got the job because A cussed out a customer and they fired her. Yes, they want to make someone they've fired from my job, my supervisor! ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH THIS SHIT!?

So needless to say I'm NOT looking forward to the awkward mess i have coming for me!

On a side note: B's applying for a job in a smaller town about an hour from where we currently live. If he gets this job, i can and have to quit my job.

he's all ready turned in his application

They select on the 19th

and interview starting the 22nd.

So hopefully i won't have to work there much longer.

i haven't even started back and I'm already praying for the day i can quit.

the only down side to this is my school will now be 1 hour 45 min - 2 hour drive. Not looking forward to that. but I'll do what i have to. I'm just looking forward to not having to work there. maybe I'll get a weekend job working at an office or something. We shall see. but for now just cross your fingers i don't have to work there any longer than i absolutely have too.

the adventures of my evil co worker

On the 17th i had this guy call in he has these HUGE windows on his house in WA. Well i spent like 30 min on the phone with him going over things and explaining things to get his drapes cleaned and get a good person out there to help him.


Starting in November he's having his house painted on the inside. So he wants them down the friday before (the 31st). So i scheduled it accordingly.

again thats a full 2 weeks.

well i gave it to her to schedule and put on B (boss driver)'s schedule. Apparently she put it on the "regular driver future order clip board".

So yesterday she goes...

"B can't make it to this one its not in the area he's going",

i said

"um, no thats been scheudled for over 2 weeks the guy is counting on us to go out there".

she snottly replies
"well, then you have to explain that to B, because i'm not going to get yelled at for you".

I dropped it there because i was already plotting her death at this point.

So just a few min ago D (our boss) asks us about it. She says:

"Rotty schedulded this and its not in his area so I called driver Y and had him pick it up because bill didn't want to go out there and it wasn't on his schedule".

i was like "um no wait a second. I scheduled that for the 31st on the 17th. you put it on the future order clip board"

she goes "no it was originally scheduled for the 17th see here where it says the 17th"

i said "No, It says the 17th on there because i messed up and when it printed out it didn't say what it was supposed to so i asked you to write the 31st on there for me and then put it on B's schdule. I've had that one schedlued since beofre he went on vacation. (ps. he went to montana all last week)"

and thats when D interjected and told me not to schedule for B anymore. Which is fine.

but i'm like really? just shove me under that bus