Confession Friday

Its been a long long week. But Friday is here. and its time to confess:

Confession Friday
♥ I took a pregnancy test this week for the first time in almost 2 years.

♥ I wanted it to be negative (we're just not ready), but when it was i was a little bit sad.

♥ I'm desperately afraid of getting pregnant because of how many people so close to me have had difficulties.

♥ Mostly I'm afraid of having a Miscarriage. I don't know if i could handle it emotionally.

♥ All that being said. I can't wait to start TTC (trying to conceive). B will be an amazing husband.

♥ B almost got into a fist fight last night because someone was giving me shit and it upset me. and while i don't want him to fight, the fact that he would made me both so happy and incredibly hot!!

♥ I'm a little afraid of how Sammy will react when i have a baby. He freaks out when my Amazing Godson shows up for a while. Last time he actually peed on the carpet. he hasn't done that in ages.

♥ I'm afraid I'll be a mom like my mom. Even though I'm not willing to let that happen. Its still a fear.

♥ I know my mom is going to give me sooooooooooo much shit about the fight B 'almost got into' on Thursday, and I'm just not willing to listen.

♥ I think i might... might.. possibly have an addiction to blogging.

.... and with that. I say good night loves.
Sweet dreams

October 15th - Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Today is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Far Far Far to many of my dearest friends have suffered pregnancy and infant loss in their life time.

Take a few moments from your day and say a prayer in memory and in love and loss of the babies that were to beautiful to be kept in this world.

May they always be remembered. May they never be forgotten. They will always be loved. Always.