Monday, January 28, 2008 0 comments


We woke up to a white morning!
the roads are icy and the grass is snowy!

Sunday, January 27, 2008 0 comments


It is tough. it is hard. and i hate it.
I'm really struggling this term.
I'm 3 weeks in. this is a shorter term just with the holidays.
one class we only meet 9 times. but she's super duper cool ultra awesome teacher extraordinaire!
this term I'm taking Math 65, Speech 111, and Business Administration 205!!
Math = I like math, i just like it as long as i understand it. When i don't get it... i hate it!
Speech = fun stuff! i love the class!
Business = eh... i don't feel like I'm learning anything. i really don't. So far all we have done is answer questions about what 'we feel' and answering questions out of the book. super stupid busy work. make me think dammit!

but next term i get to start my design courses. that I'm happy about but at the same time not so much. I'm happy because I'll finally feel like I'm going to school for something productive. but it sucks because the school is sooooooooooooo far away. it sucks. I'm most likely going to spend more time on the road to and from classes then actually in the classes them selves. but I'll be almost done. next term is the 1 year mark for me to be done.

~Working Out~
I want a gym membership so bad! i do!
Its not 'doable' to work out at work just because of time and transportation.
but i could totally do it if i had a membership to the place up the street.
its a no name place. i could work out before class, or i coudl work out after class.
but selling my husband on this is.... not possible!
its like 40.00 a month.
i would like to try it out for a month (its only 40.00) and see how it works out.
see how i like it, see if i can do it.
we'll see how it goes.

So the person i like 'best' at work is leaving. She got a chief position in a differant department. I love her. She offered me the same postiton down in her department. I am seriously thinking about it but i'm not sure what to do. I think i'm going to keep trying it where i am. but if after she starts her new position, if it gets way worse, i'm gonna have to move. I don't want to but i don't want to hate work either. i feel bad, but i also have to make the best decision for me.
Friday, January 25, 2008 1 comments

My Goal

I found this site via Mrs.Messi's blog (she's hella cool)( )
You can create before and after models with your body type.

i have some pretty significant weight loss goals for the next year
25lbs or so

-------BEFORE (153) ----------------------------After (125)

I can do it! its just going to take some work!
i can do this!

New Baby pictures


my puppy is my baby!
Sammy so cute!

Sammy sticks his tounge out at you!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 0 comments

I wish

i wish...

  • to one day move out of this damn apartment
  • to have perfect teeth
  • to own a car and be able to drive it off the lot!
  • to have a house
  • to own a business
  • to be the first to graduate college.
  • to graduate college before my little brother
  • to be happy with me and my body
  • to get another dog
  • to eventually have a baby (or three)
  • to not have to live pay check to pay check
  • to be able to travel over seas and be able to see things and places
  • to be married for 50 + years
  • to be told i'm loved every day
  • to be told i'm pretty every day
  • to get forhead kisses every day

Scenes from my window

Such a pretty sunset!
Its so cold here but DAMN it makes for some pretty skies
we have a chance of snow for tomorrow.... this might be the last pretty sunset i see for a while
i had to capture it!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008 0 comments

What a crappy day!

So i get these 'feelings' (thats what i call them) some days. I can sort of sense that something bad is going to happen, either to me or my husband. Well Today was one of those days

i just had this since that something was off.

so it came in 2 forms today

1) my husband got sick
2) i got in a car Occident

It has been a horrifically terribly day.

So here is what happened in my incident

so i was sitting at the intersection

i'm the black truck
there is a blue jetta in front of me
the light turns green, i go,
i turn my head for 2 seconds and he hits his breaks and i don't have a chance to stop.
i hit him!
He was so mad! and he had every right to be.
but there was no damage. he 'might' have a couple scratches on his car.
but he told me at the scene that he was just in another accident (a couple weeks ago) and he hurt himself.
So i am freaking out that he's gonna be sneaky and underhanded and claim that i hurt him! i'm so afraid!
but i called my insurance company and told them what happened.
i got like 6 calls from different insurance people.
i pray to god that it all works out!!!!
i'm so freaked out!

Heath Ledger is Dead!

I totally thought the next to go would be britney!
jesus, i didn't even think of him as the OD'ing type... wowzer.

At 3:31 p.m., a masseuse arrived at Apartment 5A in the building for an appointment with Mr. Ledger, the police said. The masseuse was let in to the home by a housekeeper, who then knocked on the door of Mr. Ledger’s bedroom. When no one answered, the housekeeper and the masseuse opened the bedroom and found Mr. Ledger unconscious. They shook him, but he did not respond. They immediately called the authorities. The police said they did not suspect foul play and said they found pills near body

Monday, January 21, 2008 0 comments

after a long and emotional day

Small things can really make you feel better.

From my loverly River!!!

Seens from my window

so Oregon is expeincing an un normal cold front. It sucks!
but it makes for some amazing pictures





it is SO cold here that with out rain it forms ice on our roof. its insane!



What a day

Things got a LOT out of hand today.
I didn't really realize how things i type in my personal blog would make such an impact.
I'm still in a little shock over it all.

but i'll tell you i learned quite a bit from todays events. okay. i learned mor than a bit. i learned a lot!
Sunday, January 20, 2008 0 comments

Baby Shower

So My bestest best friend is pregnant. She's due March 20th (7 days before my birthday!!). I'm going to be a god mommy and i'm so excited for him to get here.
A will have a beautiful baby boy Dominic Kai! and i'm so excited.
Today was the shower
I've never thrown a shower before. So this was new to me but it turned out really really well.
here are some pictures




we're watching Knocked UP... i thought it was verry fitting.


Photobucket all the presents!!!!!!!!!!!












Sunday, January 13, 2008 0 comments

I love what i do

so this morning i was working a mission and was on the flight line at 0730 in the morning.
i caught some AMAZING pictures. I thought i would share!!!

I took this one right after the end of the day. it was so so so pretty. the mountain was so clear! I love how pretty it is!

Thursday, January 10, 2008 0 comments

As the sand through the hour glass

so are the days of our lives.

I've come to notice how strong i am in my self and in my relationship with my husband over the week. I haven't talked to my mother or my brother in over a week, and i am not quite sure when i'll be ready to talk to them. I feel super terrible for my dad, who seems stuck in the middle.

so this weekend is another 'duty weekend'

i used to look forward to these weekends. they were full of laughter and fun, full of friends and family. Now they are just a pain. the 2.5 hour drive, the shity hotel, the super crappy people. There is such a division of people in this new place. there is them and us. there is the old people and the new people. Gah! its frustrating. In my old place i knew my role. I had things i did and people who were truley happy to see me each month. Now its just about how fast can i make the day go by. what can i do to pass the time. and it sucks! it really sucks. I love my duty and i love what i do, but them and this place makes it so so so hard to enjoy.

in may i get to go to Virginia and that should be really interesting. I've only been to the east coast but one time. and that was for a 2 hour lay over while our plane refuled on our trip to germany. we didn't even leave the terminal. but what is new. i never leave the terminal. hahahaha!

If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.
St. Clement of Alexandra
Friday, January 4, 2008 1 comments
So as many of you know i bowl on a league on Thursdays nights. I bowled on a team with my little brother "R" and my husband and a friend. My Parents bowled on a differant team with their friends. I've been around this leauge since i was born and it and the people on it mean the world to me.

Well last night was bowling AND their was a blazer game on. you all know how i love my blazers. Well they don't have TV's in the alley (dumb idea!) so we had to run into the bar.

Not that far away. B bowls before me. so we had this 'tag team' thing going. He would go bowl while i was watching the game. Then he would come and 'tap out' and i'd go bowl. then when I came back in i'd tell him, and 2 of the other teams players who was up and they'd bowl. So in the bar was me and B and 2 of the players from the other team. w

ell we waited till the 4th quarter... then the blazers went into DOUBLE OVER TIME (against the bulls!)!!!well the game is almost over and B tells me that R is mad at me because i'm not bowling 'up to potential' the second game.

The first game i shot 6 pins over average but struggled even with out the game. I don't bowl league for average or to win, i bowl to have fun with friends and family. Well the game gets over, so we go down to our lanes.

FYI at that point there was over 25 people in the bar, so we weren't alone. my brother is down on my parents lanes biitching about us. Well he gets back to our lanes (he was up, but was busy talking), and he starts in on us saying shiit like "are you here now?" "are you realy really sure?" "are you able to make the distinction between basketball and bowling? because i'm not sure you can" and blah blah blah....well it dies down and we bowl a couple more frames.

and i go over to tlak to him. NORMALLY my brother and i can talk it out. He says something about the rules and how he could have us removed from the game blah blah. I told him i'm not just a team mate i'm his sister and i believe his taking this a little far. He then tells me to grow up and get over it. Yet, he's the one upset over a bowling game. we get into it again. i get in his face and he gets in mine. i stop and go bowl.

while i'm up to bowl R gets in B's face and they start in. i step in between them. B goes up to bowl at this point i've only thrown 1 ball and i'm still up. My little brother R then calls B an alcholic and this and that. I almost biitch slapped him then and there. but i didn't. I got pretty heated though. and told him he had "no right to say such things". again B had 4 beers. thats all.

i go up to finish my frame and while i'm up to bowl R calls me a tvvat!!!!i didn't hear it, but B, and the other team heard it. B goes after R. and i again step in the middle. this time my mom comes down. and steps in between. FYI, she works at the bowling ally, but isn't on the clock. B asks her "if it was any other man that just called your daughter a tvvat... what would you do or say?" she didn't respond. she just said she had to stand there and seperate us because it was her job. at this point i'm bawling.

i tell her she needs to put someone else (who is on the clock and acually working and NOT related to me) to stand where she is. and she says no. i'm like 'i'm asking you as your daugter don't do this, bring someone else in' she told me no. we finish bowling and me and b decided we're not going back. i told my dad (who is the league secratary and can remove people) that we wouldn't be back. he goes "just give it time, let me talk to him".... i just look at him (i'm a huge daddy's girl) and say "if it was any other man who said that to me, you'd kick him off the league. but its not, its R. so i am removing myself from the league. You know how much this league means to me and i am leaving". I'm still crying. i give him a hug and me and b leave.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008 0 comments

commute adventures take 2

So i had some funny happenings today on my way home. fairly interesting.

on the way off the hill on the sky tram, there were 2 people who were afraid of heights. the Street car wasn't too bad, i got a nice warm heater spot. In case you haven't realized, heater spots are very important. It was calm for the most part. roughly busy, but not bad.

then i waited for max. I got stuck with the old cars. Those cars aren't handicap accessible, old, and generally sucky. there is less seating, and your much MUCH closer to those you don't want to be close to.

well i thought i had gotten lucky and wouldn't have anyone sit around me. there are 4 seats, 2 on each side facing each. well i got unlucky really fast. this festively plump lady and man came to sit in front of me. she didn't ask if she could sit in front of me. I know its not 'my' seat but to me its public transportation courtesy. that and give me a second to move. she just says "i am sitting here"

well... they sit down and start talking. come to find out they had just met at one of Portland's many free lunch places. And she is going to his house with him. They keep talking, he asks her what kind of music she likes. her response " i like anything with a beat, i don't like the music you can't fvkk too". WOW! Then she says something about how they were meant to meet because they both never go there but they did today. it was rather entertaining for my commute.

then this lovely woman sits down after the 'couple' gets off. and i have to stifle my laughter when i see her and her drawn on eye brows that come down to the corners of her eyes. god it was funny to see.

then in the back ground there is a boy with tourettes who is making car noises and some other random noises and a hooker trying to pick up a new john.

all in all... pretty funny commute. I didn't get to wet and no one bugged me to bad.
i consider this a win-day in my commute.

Me on the street car