I've decided

I'm going to join Weight Watchers

I've been working out 2-4 times a week
I've been eating better.
I just feel like there's another step i can take
So Wednesday @ 6:45.

I'm pretty excited!

So far i've been cutting down my calorie intake
I've been watching my portion control

But i just think this is a good next step

my SIL lost over 100lbs by just doing WW. Not working out at all. just WW. i hate her.

They Found Her...

We got the call this afternoon.

They found her body.

If you don't know what I'm referring to Look Here!

I'm happy for the closure, but so so devastatingly sad.

May everyone please pray and send good good thoughts for Marie and her family and friends

Do you smell that smell?

Whats that smell i'm smelling?

FALL!

Fall is coming people! and i'm SOOOOOOOOO excited.

After reading NYC H.I.T and McMommy, I've decided to carry on the tradition.

So This is what i'm excited for this fall:

~Candles

~Snuggling Under Blankets

~The Holidays

~Using my heater in my new car

~Long sleeves & Long plants

~Snuggly Sweaters

~Boots & Slippers

~FLEECE Pj's

~Ciders and Coffee (its always better in the fall)

~Decorating

~Dark Colors! i love rich rich dark colors of fall. plums, burgdys, chocolates. love love love.

& FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!

So food deserves its own category!

-soups

-Stews

-Roasts

-Baking!

-cookies

-cupcakes

-baking

-baking

-baking

I'm so so excited!

Look what i got this weekend:

I Can not tell you how excited i am for fall!
Don't get me wrong, i love summer. but i'm ready for fall!

So what are you excited for?? i wanna know!

I'm In Shock

NEWS ARTICLE

Marie was my coworker. We saw her every day. She was nice and friendly. i just found out today. Wow.


I just saw her on thursday. She had been taking fridays off. they had just bought the speed boat not to long ago, like less than a month.

one of our delivery drivers was her sisterinlaw. I'm in shock.
i'm to shocked to even cry right now.

they can't find her body. I just.. its just... whoa.
just whoa.

There is a FUCKING REASON you're not supposed to drink and drive.
i don't care if your driving a car, a boat, or a fucking moped.
Just.Don't.Do.It!
Seriously!

Boating Under the Influence is a big deal. Someone operating a boat with a blood alcohol content of over .10% is 10 times more likely to die in a boating accident than somone driving a boat sober. BUI is reponsible for 34% of fatal boating accidents every year.

I'm A Winner!

Okay so this post has been a long time coming. I'm a procrastonator, what can i say?
(p.s. how do you spell procrasinator?)

You remember this?

NYC H.I.T giveaway?

well... I won it!!!!!!!!!!!!!


how the hell that happened? i'm not sure but i did.
and it was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Freaking Mazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much NYC H.I.T for this amazing lovely gift of awesomeness

And the Beat Goes On...

And the Beat Goes On.

Oh the things to talk to you about! I really need to work on my relationship with you all! I swear i'm neglecting you, but not on purpose. I love you guys!

okay so i swear i'll update you as soon as possible!!

1) B's job search update
2) My work mealt down (no not me melting down)
3) Camping
3a) b vs bees
4) the heat here
5) My journey in life style change
6) Seasons are a changin'!

i swear to gawd there's more. but i just can't think at the moment.
i need more beer and more food.

3 words

oh. my. gawd.



::swoons::

Day #3

Well, my co-irker was gone... AGAIN!

So today was interesting. but at the end of the day i had a killer head ache.

I ate good, but didn't get a chance to work out like i wanted to. bummer i know.

And its back!!

My Follow List is back and full!
thank god!
i thought i might have to hunt senior blogger maker down and hurt him.
he's a very lucky man! lol.

::gives best hard ass face::

You have GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!

My Blogs i follow list is empty!
Eff you blogger, i want my list back!
WTF!!!

Okay, how about a good update!!

So Happy Wednesday (or Hump Day as i like to call it)!!

Day #1 (08/11) - I decided that because i didn't have groceries, that i could eat whatever i wanted for lunch. So i had Taco Dell Mar. mmmmmmmmm. Mondito Burrito! anywhozer, I did go to the gym. My abs were still sore from my drill weekend PT Test, so i just did 35 min of cardio on the stationary bike and read my book.

{side bar} remind me later to catch you up on my recent reads! K? K!

After i got home, we went to the store and we got a lot of healthy foods. A lot of good things to eat and snack on.

That night, B made his classic home made calzone with ground turkey, a bunch of veggies and a tiny bit of cheese. lol. I love cheese, thats why he makes it. because if i made it it would be 96.5% cheese and 3% meet and .5% veggies. lol.

Day #2 (08/11) - I had a good start to the morning. I started with a Carnation Instant Breakfast, A chewie (90 calorie) bar, and a cup of coffee (home made, not starbucks).

For lunch i had a smart ones pasta with left over turkey and 2 plums.

For Snack i had a handful of the Healthy Pringles and only 1 coke for the day (HUGE DEAL!!). I Love Me some coke. Today i need to go to the Market and get some Coke Zero, not as good, but better than nothing.

We had bowling, so I didn't go Work out. But B did Make us dinner! We had Steak and Rice.
P.s. I FREAKING LOVE RICE!!! i'm weird, i know, but i seriously could eat an entire meal made of rice, but it has to be good rice. that whole minute rice shit reminds me of basic traning, not so tasty.

So i'm going to have a steak sandwich with the left over steak and rice as the side today for lunch and to tell you what, i'm WAY excited! lol!! WAY!

But now its time to pack my gym bag, make my coffee, pack my lunch, and get my happy ass to work.

Have a happy wednesday ladies!!!

Day #2

Day #1 went well, i didn't eat great because we didn't go to the store till Monday night.
but i did do 35 min of cardio.

day #2 went pretty good. I broke down and had a coke. but 1 coke isn't bad.

Tomorrow Starts a New Day!!

Tomorrow I start a new chapter. No, i'm not quitting, not that lucky.

Tomorrow I start my new life style change (read: diet and working out).

So the plan is this:
-take my lunch to work
-No more beer during the work week - strike that, no liquor during the work week
-No regular coke
-Coke Zero is okay, but only 1 time a day
-Water & flavoring is okay
-Working out 3+ times a week
-Eating at home every night of the work week (praying for leftovers)
-Eating smaller amounts, and not stuffing myself

soooooooooooooooo thats about it.
We'll see how it goes, hopefully i can stick with it.

send me good vibes.

(p.s. i got thru an entire post with out totally turning it into a bitch session about work. GO ME!)

Sometimes i wonder...

What it would be like to just quit. To just walk away. To just tell them all that what they're doing is fucked up, that whats going on is jacked.

So, Thursday i get pulled into an impromptu meeting about my job. apparently my position is being eliminated. and they're offering me another job in the company. It hasn't been created yet, but it will be with in the next month. I'd basically be the Secretary for the whole company. I'd love to tell you that i should take it, and i'm excited for the new opportunity. but i just can't. I hate the way they treat me, i hate the way i feel. i just hate it all. I just want to get out of there.

their they value the ability to blow smoke up someones ass instead of loyalty, work quality and job performance. i'm just so tired of it.

I'm tired of busting my ass and getting no where.
I'm tired of trying soooooooooo hard and getting smacked back down.
I'm tired of caring and getting nothing in return.

I just want to quit. I just want to get out. I hate it so much i cry. I hate it so much im exhausted from pretending.

dear lord, please let B get a job so i can get out of there. thank you for blessing me with the ability to work. but i just hope B gets an opportunity soon! :(


thanks for letting me vent!