Thursday, January 10, 2013 0 comments

Oh, The Fear

So I have a confession.

I have Dipsophobia
I am desperately, insanely, crazily afraid of the Dentist.
You know how some people fear riding in planes, spiders, etc. I fear the dentist.

I had a bad incident when I was a kid where they drilled before I was numb.
Then long stretches of not having dental insurance so I always had cavities.
Those 2 coupled with some serious anxiety normally and you get some serious catatonic fear.

I thought I had finally kicked the fear when we were still back home.
I had found a really really amazing dentist. They just opened an office around the corner from our old apartment. Plus the dentists first and last names were the same as my husbands first and middle name.
A freaking sign, right?
He was amazing. He totally understood my fear. He was so helpful.

So, I felt pretty good when I moved down here. I made an appointment to go to a local dentist. And it was an EPIC FAILURE!!

First, the office was really hard to find.
Second, I had to wait in the office for over 20 minutes past my appointment time
Third, When they finally called me back, the tech was rough when she took my x-rays and then I seriously sat around for over an hour. then the tech complained about how small my teeth were and then the dentist was really forceful. she wanted me to wait another hour and come back and have something done. I left, cried, and never went back. 

But now the military has said I need a note from my Civilian Dentist. So...fuck.
A new dentist opened up not to far from the house. I thought i'd give them a chance.

I'm freaking out. B, isn't here. I have no one here.
I am slightly freaking out.
By slightly I mean I'm majorly having panic attacks on the inside.

Monday, January 7, 2013 0 comments

Week 1 - Smashed it.

As this week draws to a close I thought I might blog about the ups and downs of the first week on Whole 30

I read about all of the Whole 30 tips, tricks, testimonials, etc. So the weekend before I packed up EVERYTHING out of my house. I packed up 5 bags and 2 boxes of (semi)healthy food and gave it to one of my co-workers. She's a tiny little thing and has 2 kids. So I figure, she can use the food.

So as you know Monday was New Years Eve. It was.... interesting. I spent it in bed watching movies. Lol. With B deployed, I didn't want to go anywhere where I'd have to drive home.  So I just stayed here. and had wine. lol.

That was Monday.

Tuesday It all started. The Showroom I work at was closed, so I used today to go to the grocery store. I stocked up on veggies, fruits, eggs and meats.

Can I just say how hard it is to find bacon with out SUGAR in it. FUCK! I just want bacon.

I did pretty well all week. The food is glorious. I had talapia and green beans for 3 nights in a row, simply because it was so freaking good.

The major downside to the first week is the withdrawl from everything. I went further than most with the Whole30. I gave up caffeine too.

The side effect or side bonus of this Whole 30 is I find more out about my migraines and my battles with them.

So I gave up fake sugar, anything processed, most carbs, caffeine, alcohol, and um... I think thats it.

When I tell people this, they say "so what do you eat?" but seriously, there is so much more to life than all of that crap.

I'm eating like a mother fucking queen!
Sometimes you want something bad, but you have to remember that those little things got me here to this weight. those things got me to this point. Those things aren't going to stop me now.

So I started a support group with some of my friends and we do weekly weigh ins. I know on whole30 they suggest not weighing yourself till the very end, but I did.

So 12/31 I weighed in at 202.5.... and I cried. I've never been at that weight. It is my all time heaviest. I couldn't believe it. but it happened.

on 01/06 I weighed in at 195.5. Thats a 7 lb difference in just one week.

The headaches are still here almost nightly. but i'm still holding out hope.

On to week 2....

Sunday, January 6, 2013 0 comments

I Went Off The Deep End

I took the plunge folks.
I've been talking to people for a while about it.
but I finally decided to do it.


You heard it here first ladies and.... ladies.

So on Jan 1st I started Whole 30.

There was a group of girls I know doing it and with B being deployed. Now is the best time.

I am not going to lie, part of it sucks. but its not hard.

I had read "It Starts With Food" a while back, but the way B eats, its just not practical.

 It is an awesome, bluntly, honest book about food, our mental-fuck that is the way we eat. and i love it. So when I saw this plastered on everyone's facebook, blogs, instagrams, etc.

So I decided, why the fuck not.
So I did it.
I'm all in.