Friday, June 29, 2012 0 comments

Monday - Not so "funday".... or Friday update.

(Started this post on Monday. Its now Friday evening. So, I am going to post what I had started, and then finish on today)
So I know I said that I would weigh in last week.... Well that didn't happen.
I weighed in today. Not first thing in the morning like I prefer. But I did weigh in.

Scale reads: 194. UGH! I still can't get used to seeing this arrangement of numbers on my scale. Where the flying fuck did all this weight come from. I really feel like just yesterday I was at 150 and OMG SO FAT!
[Finished Monday's post]

Fast Forward 5 days and we're here on Friday Evening
Today's weigh in 191! FUCKING AWESOME!

Its been a struggle this week to keep my eating under control and tracking my intake of, well... everything.
So this week this has been my meal plans:

Breakfast: 3 slices of oven roasted turkey breast (3oz) & Half of a grapefruit
Snack: 1/2 cup of greens & 3 oz of fish (salmon, shrimp, or tuna)
Lunch: 1/2 cup of sweet potato or 1/2 cup of brown rice, 1/2 cup greens, & 3-4oz of fish
Snack: 1/2 cup of greens & 3 oz of fish (salmon, shrimp, or tuna)
Dinner: 1/2 cup of sweet potato or 1/2 cup of brown rice, 1/2 cup greens, & 3-4oz of fish
If I have a craving for sugar I have an otter pop (15 calories of awesome)

I'm trying my HARDEST to kick my diet coke/coffee habit. I've done really well some days. But others its all I can do to not make Diet Coke the ONLY thing I drink.

But I've been trying, and that all I can do for now.

Today I took my Air Force PT Test. ...... and failed. my 40 fucking seconds. thats right. I failed my test by 40 SECONDS!

I did awesome on all my other portions. I honestly did my personal best in my sit-ups and push-ups!

in the A.F. Test you have 1 minute to do as many pushups/situps as you can. There's a scale to give your individual amounts a score. and when you total up the score you need to get a 75. the downside is that in each area there is a minimum you need to meet. So if you don't meet the minimum in 1 area, you fail. So you could max the points out in all areas and miss by, oh, 40 seconds on another and you fail. FUCK!

Today I did: 32 push ups (minimum of 18) & 47 sit ups (minimum 38).

but I ran my 1.5 mile in 17:00 minutes. And I needed to run it in 16:22.
I'm frustrated with myself.
I'm just... frustrated.

But looking at the positive. I've lost 3lbs this week. I've set a personal record for my push-ups and sit-ups. I'm working out better.

and with hard work, i'll be better and pass the next time.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012 0 comments

Migraines suck

I'm currently typing this from my phone add I am laying on my couch with an ice pack on my head.

This is a migraine for the first time in a while can't be attributed, linked, or blamed on dehydration.

I'm on a diet, one that I've done before.I've nit introduced any thing new to my system. And I'm drinking water like its.... Uh.... Water? Haha. I'm dealing peeing every 30 minutes like clockwork.

After a particularly bad dream last night, I woke up with a headache around 3am. I was finally able to get back to sleep around 730 for about an hour.

Now I'm laying here struggling to not get sick.

Ask my normal coping techniques aren't working.

These really suck.

Oh also, I posted something on facebook about my migraines. My cousin said that it seems like our families girl's all get them.

I've said something similar to my doctor set some point and he said that migraines weren't hereditary. But it just seems strange to me that so many of us can have them and there not be a link.


Bad dreams are bad...

I fucking hate hate hate bad dreams!!

This one was staring my dad.
He and my mother were drinking and having fun... then they got in a fight.

So he and  drove off. My mom begged me to go with him. So I did
I had sammy in my lap. Them I learned, just how drunk my dad was as he started swerving, and moving out of the way of things that weren't there. I begged him to pull over but he wouldn't.
I'm started freaking out and called for help to any passing person. We started to get followed by people who I was screaming at to stop

Then dad drove through a fence and our car was t-boned by a semi.

Only one who died was Sammy.

then I woke up.

Fuck fuck fuck

Hating life
Thursday, June 21, 2012 0 comments

Web Video's

So I know i've used this excuse before "I don't have time to go to the gym"
But now I can no longer use that as an excuse.
This site has every work out video you can need:
In this link there is:

Spark People:
10 Minute Jump Start Cardio Workout
10 Minute Cardio Kickboxing Workout
10 Minute Jump Rope Cardio Workout
15 Minute Abs Workout
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Cardio Abs
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Max Interval Circuit
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Jillian Michaels:
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So now you know where to go when you have a limited amount of time to work out!!!


Mid week check in

I've been thinking about setting a goal for myself. I need something to shoot for. I know myself well enough that I need to get a goal in mind. Something to reach for and to work towards. 

So, I think I've found a goal.

We're going home on leave in roughly 52 days.
I would like to lose 20 lbs in 52 days.
I know its a long shot, but I think I can do it. that's roughly 3lbs a week for 7 weeks. 

I've been reading a lot of blogs, articles, magazines, books, etc on weight loss/healthy eating lately. I actually bought 2 books from the BX last week:

I think I'm going to start posting my meal plans and get everything down.
That way its all accountable.
Tomorrow I'm going to weigh myself.
I'm a little nervous about it.

My FIL was in town for the last 4 days. I've haven't seen so much red meat in I don't know how long.

Saturday - Steaks for dinner
Sunday - Prime rib for fathers day
Monday - Burgers at Great America
Tuesday - Philly Cheese Steak Sandwich for lunch.

Granted each day I tracked my calories, and I've been at my calorie limit. Except for Tuesday, I was over by 140.
So, I hope I've lost some weight. But I'm not going to be surprised if i haven't.
I'll let you know how it goes.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012 0 comments

Fresh Start

This last month I have been Bitch Slapped by reality.

After seeing some disturbing pictures of myself from graduation and seeing "196" on my scale. I've had no other choice but face reality. I'm fat. I'm not just a little over weight any more. I'm no longer just in my "new marriage extra weight". I'm out of excuses. I did this to myself. Now I need to get myself out of it.

So, I go to the gym enough. That I know its not lack of activity that has lead me down the dark path of lumpyness. Its what I'm eating, how much i'm eating, when i'm eating, and so on.

So in light of all of this I've decided to make some changes.

I'm starting small and setting realistic goals for myself. I'm done making excuses for myself. If I have a bad day of eating, I'll face it as a fact and learn. If I want a beer, I'll have A beer and not the whole 6 pack.

So here are my goals:
  • Weigh in once a week. 
  • Try and stick to a 1200 calorie limit
  • Track my food (good and bad) on app on my phone. 
  • Go to the gym 3-4x a week.
  • Do a minimum of 30min of cardio 3x a week. 
That is it. I'm not going to put myself on a strict diet. I'm not going to eliminate carbs, sugars, etc. I'm going to try and make better choices but not force myself to do something i don't want to do. I'm going to make food I like, but with healthier choices. 

Here is my 'goal' menu:

Breakfast: Egg Whites (3-4) with 1/4-1/2 cup veggies (tomatoes, peppers, spinach, etc)

Lunch: Lean Protein (chicken or turkey), 1/2 cup rice, 1/2 cup veggie

Dinner: Lean Protein, 1 cup rice or 1 sm sweet potato, 1 cup veggie

Snack: Fruits and veggies

Desert: Otter Pop (15 calories each. Cures my sweet tooth with out the insane calories) 

Water: 1gal a day.

So I'm not saying I'm going to do this perfectly. I know i'll have my struggles to keep with in this. But this is my goal.

Find me on Myfitnesspal
Username: Mrsrotty


Tuesday, June 12, 2012 0 comments

Big Bang!!

This is by far my all time favorite moment in the history of Big Bang

Thursday, June 7, 2012 0 comments

Can't sleep....

So what do I do?
Make Nature letter words. lol

Wednesday, June 6, 2012 0 comments


Was just playing around on the computer and googled some stuff. 
came up with this. 
United States Air Force

I Miss My Husband


I do okay most of the time. I keep myself busy and distracted. but there is normally one day during each trip that i just get "home sick" that sounds weird since i'm the one home, but its the best way i can describe it.

I miss him, but its more then that. Its just the security. Its the comfort. Its the..... its everything.

We are separated, we move, we pass each other on trips....
he's my home.

.... le sigh.

He gets home Saturday. I leave sometime monday (the trip has been on and off more times than I can count. So I just plan on leaving until they tell me not to).

Today I cleaned the kitchen, did 2 loads of dishes, sanitized the counter tops, swept, swiffered, tomorrow i'll mop, did 3 loads of laundry, folded and put away 3 loads of laundry, dusted the wine wrack and dry bar, re loaded the beer fridge, picked up the bedroom and living rooms, tomorrow i'm going to vacuum and dust. The last time he was gone (about oh.... a week ago) I scrubbed the shit out of the bathrooms and showers.

I'm running out of shit to clean.... I clean when i get anxious.

I started my period today to boot.

There's no point to this.... I just had to whine for a bit.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012 0 comments

Another Battle

So, In the wake of the never ending traveling gunk I've been battling for over a week now I've allowed myself to become dehydrated.

For most people it isn't so bad when you get dehydrated. you get some minor symptoms and some minor discomfort, then you drink some water and you're right as rain.

Me, not so much. When I allow myself to get dehydrated, my brain turns into the pain center.
My major trigger (from what i can figure) is dehydration.

It starts slow. I get groggy and sluggish. I get really tired and sometimes I'll sleep all day. Then somewhere in this fog the pain starts. It will either start slowly and build up like the psycho background music in some slasher film. or it just jumps up and whacks you like a 2x4 to the side of the skull.

So now i'm in bed, I've been here since 630. After my lovely conversation with my husband who can only contact me once a day, I decided that it would be good to lay down. Ice pack on the back of my neck & one on the top of my head.

My medications make me sketchy. I feel sketchy and anxiety ridden. Like i'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I need to go to bed......


My weekend in pictures

Sunday, June 3, 2012 0 comments

Long Weekend

This weekend was a military weekend. And as most of them go it was busy, stressful, slightly chaotic, and oddly wonderful in spite and because of all of these.

I am still really sick.
I thought i was on the mend and over did it today. I think losing everything I've eaten today taught me a big lesson in that. Not to over do it when you're still recovering.

Right now i'm downloading Audio books onto my cell phone so that I can listen to them while i sleep.

B is gone... again. This time he's in some hole in the wall place in Texas.
I dropped him off at the airport first thing this morning.
I find it sad that I don't cry any more when he leaves on these short trips.
I think with the ever present thought that there will be a really long long LONG trip coming up soon that I'm able to put these frequent little trips into perspective.

But back to my weekend. My drama troop is back.
I'll type out that story tomorrow, Its a doozy.

Saturday we had a lot of meetings and training to do. My troops were scattered everywhere.

     I had 2 out-processing to finally go to tech school. Poor kids. They have to go back to being "new" and treated like they just joined the military because the school they needed closed their doors and moved from Texas to Virginia. So they've been functioning members in our unit for almost a year now. Now they have to go back to "basics" (no pun intended) and be treated not as prior service, but as baby new kids.
     My troops that just came home from deployment were doing their last  minute travel vouchers and they were preparing for a trip to Washington (annual tour)
     Most were in inspection prep meetings and training. While the remaining were at the Passenger Terminal (PAX) with me doing some training.
     My drama troop is back. I'll type out that story tomorrow, Its a doozy.

Sunday wasn't bad. I took B to the airport so I was roughly 20 minutes late (30 when you throw in my detour to starbucks). My goodness my troops must have known I was down because they sure were SPOT ON today. I mean, as spot on as you can be at 20 years old with the attention span of a puppy. focused ... focused ..... focused .....focused..... SQUIRREL !!!!! So I gave them a break and we left at 1030 for lunch. i think we meandered back to the unit and to work around 1. It wasn't like we didn't do our work, we just got it all done really quickly and efficiently that they earned a break. I'm pretty hard on them most of the time. I expect greatness and nothing else will do. Tough, Hard, but fair.

Then Sunday afternoon my first and #1 favorite female officer (B's my #1 favorite lol)made "Full Bird" Colonel today. I cried during her ceremony. I've known her for as long as I can remember.

She was in my fathers unit when i was young and she was a young LT
She was my first commander when I joined the military and joined my fathers unit.
She was in my second duty station when we moved bases to Washington
She was down her when we moved to California and I joined this unit.
She's just always been there.
Now she's taking up a really good and important roll at a base in Illinois. I don't see myself heading there any time soon. hahaha.

I have a lot of pictures on my phone to add. I'll add those to my next post in a bit.
I'm going to go lay down now.
I don't feel so bad when I'm laying down, its in every other position and movement that seems to reek havoc on my body. not so fun

but my books are finally loaded.
good night bloggers
Saturday, June 2, 2012 0 comments


Its 11:30.... My alarms are set to start going off at three minute intervals at 4:25.

I originally went to bed and passed out asleep around 7:30.

I woke up at 9:45 with a really bad leg cramp.

I'm so nauseated it is hard to sleep.

I'm some where between shaking with fever and throwing up from waves of nausea.

I haven't been this sick in a long time.

To bad there is no time to recoup

I have to get up for training my troops in the morning. I'm hoping my duckies take it easy on me.

We're hosting a farewell dinner/bbq tomorrow night for a friend, its the only time we can all get together before my best guy friend (moving to the east coast) and B leave (going to Texas for training). Its to late to cancel, amd i'm honestly really looking forward to seeing everyone, but its going to be rough.

Getting sick never comes at a good time.

I would like to get a time machine and go back to when being sick came with chicken noodle soup and juice. Along with a free day off school and the only worry was the lack of good day time TV.

Sometimes being an adult sucks